Thursday, December 30, 2010

My Thoughts As I Face Yet Another Death - A Friend

They seem to come in seasons. None for a long time and then back to back, or so it seems.
It's made me think about my own mortality. The uncertainty of not knowing when your time is up. No one knows when it comes. It just comes. If someone is sick, you know they will either get well, worse, or die. If they are sick, you can understand. . . accept, but when it just happens, it is more difficult.

With the last announcement, it makes me more appreciative of today because that is all we have. Tomorrow is just a hope we have but we really don't know. I can't imagine what my children will go through at the passing of their mother, or my husband. It's hard to think of not being here, seeing them, hugging them, being in their lives.

I can only that I wake tomorrow. But just in case, I never forget to say "I Love You" to my sons, grandsons, daughter-in-laws, granddaughters, to each that I speak to because that maybe what sustains them when I am no longer here.

I enjoy this journey now more than ever. I have lived. God has been my peace, my strength, my source of enthusiasm and desire to go on.  If you haven't gotten your house in order, if you haven't said what you wanted to a loved one, if you haven't forgiven someone, if you have aught against another, maybe it's time to RELEASE!

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