Today my thoughts are on the many faces of grief. This emotion that takes control, casts you down into a pit, stomps on you, steals your joy, fills you with anguish, rides your back like a Gorilla, clutters your mind with fear, doubts and hopelessness
Is death the only time in my life where I have felt these feelings? What about you? Does any of this read familiar to you? I think that we stock up our grief in little piles within and never let go. Why do we hold on? Let me speak for me: because I wanted to preserve it, without even realizing it. Why would you want to keep grief locked up inside? Maybe it’s fear of the loss of something you have felt safe with, or the fear of being vulnerable.
What are my piles that I’ve stacked up? The separation and abandonment of both parents at 7 years old; losing my grandmother as the next caregiver in line to care for me in the absence of my parents. I grieved the loss of my innocence for over 30 years, the violations that stole my purity.
There, I’ve said it. It’s out. These were my grief piles that I had forgotten about. Locked them away and never wanted to re-visit them again.
What are you grieving? Perhaps you are struggling with grief and through my sharing, you might identify your piled up grief moments that you have never let go of. Maybe it’s time to address them, so that you can be free, so you can move on.
You can still find joy in the midst of the challenges of life. The Joni Eareckson Tada Story (click here)
